Monday, April 8, 2013

These days occur

I'm back! Both literally and... literally. I've been away on holiday in India, and one thing I want to get back into now I'm home is this poor neglected blog. So I'm back, back home :)

So, story and pictures time. Bear with me on this. It gets better, as they say. 

Years ago, many now thank goodness, I was struck with a depression so deep I never actually thought I would claw my way out. And though I was never suicidal, I would so often wish just to... not exist. I just wanted to fade away, to no longer feel the sadness I thought would never end. It may seem selfish to wish away a life, but that's depression for you, the fucker. It doesn't think like that. It seeks to destroy, not appreciate. I didn't care that life was valuable, worthy, precious. I just wanted it gone.

Nowadays, there are still some days that I think back on those times. But not sad days, happy ones. I look back and think that if that had happened this day could have never occurred. And it seems so crazy, and hopeful and amazing. That I am a person having such a day, when once I wanted all days to end. It's the most beautiful thing, to be so grateful and happy. And alive.

My afternoon at the "Beatles Ashram" was one of these days. It's such a surreal and lovely place, so peaceful and rich with strange history. As I sat with my new friends, letting the sound of the music and the sun wash over me, I realised "This day could have never occurred". And suddenly the day felt more like a miracle than a moment in time.  This day could have never occurred. How sad, and how wonderful. 

The thing is, there are so many days that could never have occurred. Not because of death, but because of fear, of shyness, of whatever, whatever holds you back. Because you didn't take that chance to do something new, didn't tell someone how you felt, weren't paying attention, didn't say yes. I think of the things I did to make that day exist; got on a plane, smiled at a stranger, asked a new friend to join me on an adventure. How close I could have been to doing none of those things, how scary each one was, in their own way. But I did them and this day occurred. There's the miracle, right there. These days occur. 

"Beatle's Ashram", Rishikesh:


Saturday, February 18, 2012

Cabin Porn!

The best kind! Apart from this kind, of course.

All images from Cabin Porn aka my "happy place" :)


Damn I Love You

I am currently obsessed with the slightly creepy, raw and beautiful sound of Keaton Henson's voice. There's something very goosebump-y about his music which reminds me of Sufjan Stevens (maybe mixed with Lou Barlow? I'm not very good at this)

Here are some still from his haunting (literally, there's a ghost!) video for "Party Song" (note: I wouldn't actully advise playing this at a party, unless you want all your guests to start crying, then leaving to go and sit alone in a dark room writing poetry) (which actually sounds like my kind of party)

The song that actually kills me though is the amazing "Sarah Minor". I think it's youtube hits have doubled since I discovered it :)

"And god you love to argue and you can't play guitar,
But still let me tell you that I love who you are,
But still let me tell you that I love who you are"



Thursday, January 26, 2012

What I Wore Today

... is a great flickr group where people... well, you should have figured that out already. There are so many talented illustrators (and fashionable ladies) in this pool, here are a few of my faves:


Tuesday, January 24, 2012


Here's a little something I whipped up, co-incidentally advertising my new venture... Yoga for Dudes (Ladies Welcome!)

More about Broga here, please follow if you want to read all about things yoga and meditation :)


Saturday, November 26, 2011

Takashi Iwasaki

So in awe of these colourful and fascinating embroideries by Takashi Iwasaki. 

"Most of my recent works... are either visual recording of my daily life or visualization of my imaginary worlds or landscapes that no one would see unless otherwise depicted. Those recent works may appear to be abstract on the surface, however, most shapes and colors have meanings and origins that are very significant to me in the way I feel them, therefore they are very representational and are reflection of my state of mind."

I love the idea of sharing imaginary worlds that no-one would see otherwise... to me that's the basic point of art, both making it and experiencing it. Thanks for sharing yours Takashi Iwasaki!



"Being content with what is, accepting what is; making the best out of everything. The practice of gratitude and joyfulness; remain calm with success or failure. A state of mind that is not dependant on any outer feedback or event."

I've been away for a month at the aptly named Santosha yoga school! Learning yoga but also, hopefully, the above and much, much more.

And now I'm back!